Updated: Jun 17, 2020
"Do something uncomfortable today. By stepping out of your box, you don't have to settle for what you are- you get to create who you want to become." -Howard Walskin
As I get ready for my big adventure, my feelings are a mixture of excitement, stress, optimism, and anxiousness. I am excited and optimistic about the journey ahead, but also incredibly stressed about having to pack up my entire life here and move it to the opposite side of the globe. There isn't exactly a user's manual on how to adapt and adjust your routine style of living to an entirely new hemisphere. It's easy to stay in one zip code, to grow up already molded into knowing how life works where you are: the rules of the road, general manners and customs, the language, how the finances work, what the food tastes like, etc.. It's the normal and normal is safe. It's reassuring. But normal is not growing, thriving, or achieving- truthfully, it is bland, boring, and ultimately unsatisfying.
Sometimes in life I think we get into an unfortunate cycle where we: wake up, go to work or school, come home eat dinner and then repeat the process and call it a living. The past few weeks for me personally, I have felt like I am on auto-pilot just waiting for the days to pass by to get to this trip. I sit in my comfortable little home and lay under the twinkly lights outside just waiting for something to happen. But the thing is, life is now. It's in the waiting. And He is in the waiting. And if you feel stuck it's because you have a decision to make and you aren't making it- the decision to get out of your comfort zone and to make a life not just a living.
"If you feel stuck it's because you have a decision to make and you aren't making it- the decision to get out of your comfort zone and to make a life not just a living. "
As uncomfortable and overwhelming as this trip will be throughout the next five months, I truly think that the only way to master life is to get comfortable with the uncomfortable. There have been so many times in my own life where I have been frightened of the future and the unknown because, as much as I may wish to, I cannot control it. I get anxious because I cannot influence or visualize the outcome. Change is inevitable and with it comes the most frightening thing I can think of- uncertainty. It's not necessarily the idea of being in a particular situation or unfamiliar place that makes us so uneasy, but the unknown outcome of that situation.
Most of you have probably heard of Murphy's Law- commonly quoted as "anything bad that can happen, will happen." But the truth is Murphy's law merely means that anything that can happen, will happen- disregard the premature and unfortunate emphasis on the "bad." The future is associated with fear because it is impossible to know what will happen to us. Maybe it's small things like an upcoming sports game, a job interview, the thought of marriage, buying a house, having kids or maybe its weight is heavier like awaiting the passing of a loved one. The point is we all fear something in the future. And even more than that, we fear the inability to choose the ultimate timeline or outcome of our future.
For me personally, I have learned to combat this feeling of helplessness with my faith. Don't get me wrong, I believe the decisions we make everyday are important factors in the life we live, but I also know that I am not my Father. And thank God for that. I rely on my belief that God works in ways that I can't even begin to comprehend and that His love will guide my feet to whatever path He has already chosen for me. He plans and I follow. When I start to feel overwhelmed with this trip, I remind myself how blessed I am to have the opportunity to spend such precious time embracing an entirely new lifestyle and that He has already gone before me and will be with me every step of the way. The amount of people I will have the ability to connect with and grow with is immeasurable and I have never been more ready to see what the path looks like. Anything good that can happen, will hopefully happen. My body, mind, and spirit are actively waiting for the journey to begin and to be led to a new home.
The world is a vastly beautiful place to explore, get out of your comfort zone and go do it- whatever it is you're too scared to do.